Performance Anxiety

Catchy headline, right? Now that I have your attention, I’m probably going to disappoint you in that I’m not going to talk about what you thought  I would be talking about. I’m going to be discussing what I’m sure many other writers go through: stage fright. I am about a fourth of the way through the first draft of book 4, and I’ve got to say, I’m feeling a little gun shy. There are a couple of reasons for this:

It’s time to say goodbye: Like all writers, I’ve gotten attached to these people that I’ve created in my head. Cain and Riley have been a part of my life for years, and at least for the near and somewhat far future, we are going to be parting ways so I can work on some other projects that I’m excited about. It’s time to make some new character friends, but you never forget the old.

(THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPH CONTAINS SONS OF ANARCHY SPOILERS SO DON’T CONTINUE IF YOU HAVEN’T FINISHED WATCHING THE SERIES)

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These people are real: I bawled like a baby when Jax Teller  (Sons of Anarchy for those who don’t watch the show) died. My husband looked at me like I had two heads. I was a swollen mess of tears. Because for the last several years, Jax Teller had been just as real as any person we’d see on the news. I will never meet those people either, but that doesn’t make them any less real. Writers create real people in our heads, real for all intents and purposes. So when they die, they take a piece of us with them. For book 4, there will be some definite bloodshed, and I don’t think some of my precious friends, who I have spent the last six years with, will make it out of the book alive.

I want to do right by the characters: When you spend that long with someone, as a writer, you want to make sure you do it right. You’ve poured your heart into something and you want to exit with the color and circumstance that it deserves. But rough drafts can make you wonder if you’ll ever get it right. I want the closing act to be the best one yet, and that’s a lot of pressure.

I want to do right by the readers: For every reader that has stuck with me and my books, I want to make you proud. I want you to get to the last page and feel like your journey was worth the trip. And maybe I want to make you remember these peoples’ stories for at least a little while. Maybe you’ll enjoy it so much that you’ll let your children read it when their old enough (and PLEASE wait till they’re old enough). I want to do right by you, and thank you for taking this journey with me.

And maybe, just maybe, you’ll take the next one with me too.

 

 

 

 

My These-Things-Are-Awesome Awards

So most of the time, shows I love don’t get nominated for anything and it makes me mad (minus this year with Viola Davis…well done! ). So I decided to highlight the people/shows that I deem worthy, cuz well ya know it’s my blog and I can do what I want. So drum   roll please…                                          Mads Mikkelsen– I never thought I could enjoy a portrayal of Hannibal Lector as much as I did that of Anthony Hopkins, but I was happily proved wrong. Though sadly the show is over, Mads you did him proud and I’ll remember it fondly.           Kurt Sutter- Are you f-ing kidding that the writer of one of the most popular shows of all time (Sons of Anarchy) has never got an emmy nod? I guess that just happened by magic then?       Melissa McBride- Here’s another magic one. The Walking Dead’s popularity must have nothing to do with the cast? Must just be the zombies? Please… McBride’s Carol has been amazing always but the Lizzy episode ( if you watch the show you know what I’m talking about) was above and beyond. If it didn’t deserve an emmy I don’t know what does.                                             What about  you? Feel free to add your own awards to the comments below.

Author Interview: Christa Cervone

I adore this woman for being as big of a fan of the f-word as I am. It makes my heart smile :). AND she appreciates the genius that is Kurt Sutter?! Super excited to introduce you to her. Christa Cervone is the author of the Down for the Count Series. Romantic and exciting… I’m in! What about you dear readers? Read on!

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1) Tell us a little about your book. The Down for the Count Series features Gabriel “The Saint” Vega. He’s a boxer from the streets. He’s on the fast track to stardom, when a woman, Salem Harris, turns his world upside down. She stirs up feelings he’s never felt before. Will Salem give him the one thing he’s never known—love? Or will she end up breaking his heart?

2) What is your favorite part about writing? When I can actually make sense of all the nonsense jumbled in my brain. Least favorite? It seems when I’m actively writing a story another one pops into my head. Then it becomes the battle of the two stories.
3) A director tells you that you have complete control over casting the movie version of your book. Who plays who? Jenny McCarthy or Chelsea Handler
4) If your house was burning down and you could save one thing, what would it be (don’t say photo albums, everyone says photo albums)? Well, first of all who even has photo albums anymore? Second, my pets no questions asked.
5) If you could choose what one message that a reader takes away from reading your book, what would it be? I write about the struggles of real life. You’re not going to get a rich handsome man who swoops in a saves the day of a damsel in distress. You’re going to get real life struggles, difficult choices, tears, heartbreak, laughter, hot sex, and WTF moments. My stories are about second chances and I firmly believe everyone deserves a happily ever after.
6) Imagine a world where everyone wears a t-shirt that says something about who they are as a human being, i.e. “Doesn’t play well with others” or “Don’t talk to me until I’ve had coffee.” What would yours say? “Fuck off and die” or “I’m surrounded by idiots” or “You’re the sperm that won out. Oh, I’m so sorry” and “It ain’t going to lick itself” (I actually own that shirt)
7) Who has been your biggest supporter in your writing? My husband. He’s my driving force in this insane world. He doesn’t let me quit even when I want to. He keeps me grounded and reminds me everyday how lucky I am to have him.
8) What writer do you admire the most and why? I like to refer to him as my soul mate, my future husband, and my spirit animal. He’s a brilliant writer, an evil genius and the creator of Sons of Anarchy and Bastard Executioner. Mr. Kurt Sutter.
9) If you had only one book to read for the rest of your life what would it be? Oddly enough, I never re-read books.
10) Favorite quote about writing, life or otherwise: I like to sum up my life in movie quotes. Some of my favorites: “Yippee-ki-yay, motherfucker” John McClane – Die Hard “Oh, God, the pressure of a name… Cinde-fucking-rella!” Kit Deluca – Pretty Woman And as you can see there’s a theme here. I’m a fan of the “F” word.

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INFO:
Book title: On the Ropes
Amazon Link: http://www.amazon.com/Christa-Cervone/e/B00BM6Y4LC/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1?qid=1433875305&sr=8-1
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/authorchristacervone
Twitter: @christacervone
Website: http://www.christacervone.com
Goodreads link: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/6590569.Christa_Cervone
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